I recently went to a ‘mom’s night out’ and some of the mamas were asking me about my new ‘do. While flattered (really, good hair is not something I pride myself on thanks to lack of time and propensity for frizz) I can’t take much credit because it was my friend and stylist Katie Carroll that hooked me up with my new-and-improved mane. Talking with many of the moms that night made me realize many of us had the same issue — hair loss after pregnancy. We just weren’t talking about it. Sure, we have a thousand (give or take a few) more important issues to discuss, but if you’ve ever experienced hair loss you might agree it’s tough to well, get out of your head.
To combat my hair loss after having our youngest, I tried a multitude of things. Some days the kitchen looked like a pharmacy meets chemist lab with Viviscal, Biotin and DIY yogurt, avocado, name-that-trendy-oil hair masks strewn about. I don’t want to say none of them worked, but I wasn’t getting the results I wanted as quickly as I wanted them so I turned to Katie for tape in hair extensions, cut and color. Now I am wondering why I didn’t go sooner. Oh yeah, she’s in AZ! (Insert sad face). If you happen to be on the Phoenix area, her contact info is below. 🙂 If you’ve ever thought about getting extensions, watch my video because I’m breaking it all down for you!
Find Katie on Instagram and if you’re in the Scottsdale/Phoenix area, I couldn’t recommend her enough for cuts, color or extensions. She’s done them all for me over the years and left me happy. Her contact info is in her Instagram profile. 🙂
My mom died almost 9 years ago. 9 years. It seems surreal to even write that now almost a decade later. Sometimes I still want to call her. Sometimes I look at my own two beautiful, happy, unaffected children and mourn the relationship that she will never have with them. I mourn the relationship that I will never have with her. The best friend I don’t get. The help I don’t have.
But I’m also relieved. I’m relieved that she’s not in pain on Earth. Suffering through anxiety, depression and a debilitating mental illness. I’m no longer sick with my own anxiety over whether or not would not wake up the next time she deemed this life too uncomfortable to bear. Shortly after her death, a close friend told me, ‘you’re finally free’ and I thought, ‘now, that’s cold‘. There is a sense of freedom in death though. With freedom comes great responsibility (right, America?) but it’s a burden I’ve learned to bear with strength and joy (most days).
In the past few years, I’ve witnessed friends suffer their own significant personal loss. Whether they’ve lost one of their parents, experienced yet another painful miscarriage or, the one that I’m still wrapping my brain around, lost a spouse who left behind not only her but their young son, I feel the pain all over again. I am reminded of my own experience and how I deal with grief and I want to share that story in hopes that it helps those who have lost a loved one feel a tiny bit better. Even if just for a moment.
Hey guys! I have thought about making this video for awhile, but I didn’t want it to be too ‘click-baity’. Some of you have been asking me about quitting my job, so I finally put together a Why I quit my job at Google video for you! It’s not at all comprehensive as there were many, many reasons that I left. Reasons that I gave serious consideration for at least a year. I was so scared to unlock those golden handcuffs, but at the end of the day I had to stop living in fear and start living. Watch the video to find out more and please leave me a comment on YouTube if you have any questions or want to know more! Thank you guys for reading and watching — it means so much!
^Just for fun this is me at the YouTube HQ circa 2013. The photo was in Refinery29 and I am dying because that outfit was so so so bad. I asked The Banker why he let me wear that and he said he thinks it is cute. I was nervous to be in Refinery29 so I wore all of my best pieces TOGETHER. No girl, no.
I’m honored to have teamed up with Banana Republic once again to share what moves me. I think of my children automatically. A few weeks ago, we went to Mammoth Mountain for the first time. Harlowe had never skied and despite being together since 2009 and having snowboarded several times since then, Kaare and I had never snowboarded together. What?! Unreal I say!
So when he had to go to Mammoth for work I decided the kids and I should go out and meet him because why should he have to ‘work’ all by himself? 😉 Harlowe went to ski school during the day which was a little overwhelming for her because it was only her 2nd time even seeing snow. (Her first time was actually earlier this month in Palm Springs!) Anyway, we sent her off to ski school and The Banker and I did a few runs which took me a long time because I am rusty! After a few runs, we went to watch Harlowe and she saw us and had a melt down! Never, ever show up for your kid’s ski lessons. The instructors will hate you and your heart will break when you see your baby crying. It took everything not to pull her out and hug her. She was stronger than me because after we left, we could see her get right up and give it her all until she got up the poma and down the hill ALL BY HERSELF.
To say it was one of my proudest moments is an understatement. Kaare and I were both overwhelmed with joy and pride that she stuck with it and she did it! When asked if she wanted to go again the next day, she said, ‘definitely not’, but she’s talked about her first time skiing every day since so I know how much it meant to her.
The first time I went skiing until I was 17 and my friend’s mom took me and paid for my rentals and lift ticket then graciously taught me to ski. I still remember how much fun it was and how empowered I felt coming down Mt Lemon alone for the first time. It felt like I was going 40mph but I was probably going slower than the small kids. I am so glad that we were able to give Harlowe that experience as a little kid! I honestly think she’s already a better skier than me and it makes Kaare and I so happy that she has these opportunities that neither of us had as kids.
We wrapped up the trio with some breakfast tacos with friends and I wore this ruffle sweater from Banana republic — perfect for colder Spring days like we experienced in Mammoth and on sale! I’ve been loving all things ruffled lately especially when paired with studs like these freakishly good Valentino dupes! Got to have a little bit of edge with your outfit especially when you’re feeling like a bad ass mom after a day ‘sending it’ (slowly but surely)!
I noticed my first wrinkle at the age of seventeen. I was in my grandma’s bathroom where we were both getting ready for the day and I caught a glimpse of a tiny line that could only be the beginning of crows feet mirror. Out of surprise, I began to cry and my grandma told me that crying would only make more wrinkles. Tough love I suppose, but that day was the day I started taking better care of my skin. Growing up in Arizona, I was always in the sun and it showed in freckles and tiny lines before I was legally an adult. I started using Clinique my senior year in high-school (which I’ve dubbed the gateway drug of skincare) using too much of my money earned lifeguarding and teaching swim lessons to pay for their 3-step regimen. I finally started drinking the recommended amounts of water mixing it with lemon to make it more desirable. It seemed to work. I wasn’t getting new wrinkles yet…
Fast forward to now, I’ve had two kids (read: little sleep), love the outdoors and like most, I’ve had my fair share of shockingly stressful and shockingly wonderful life experiences. All of which have left a few lines, roughness, dark circles and ugh, bags under my eyes. Now before I get all vain on you, you should know that I abhor the word ‘anti-aging’. I am so incredibly happy that I get to age. Everyday we get to live one more day is a blessing and if that means skin has to look a little more worn, it’s a small price to pay, but I do pride myself on taking care of my skin along the way.
So when my friends at Peter Thomas Roth reached out and asked if I wanted to try their brand-new Water Drench Hyaluronic Cloud Cream and Serum I was like, how soon can you ship? If you don’t know about hyraluronic acid yet, where have you been?! It’s going to help lock in moisture while improving hydration for healthier-looking skin. It’s crazy because it attracts and retains up to 1,000 times its weight in water from moisture in the atmosphere. Excuse me while I apply it and then hang out in the marine layer all morning. The serum also contains superpower humectants like Sodium PCA, Sea Algae, Honey and Yerba Santa from the Pacific Northwest to help replenish the appearance of dehydrated, aging and environmentally-damaged skin. Fine lines, wrinkles and roughness are visibly diminished and your skin actually feels smoother so you know it’s working. I shot these after using it twice daily for just one week.
Now, so you can tell the difference, below is a pic of me before using it. I’m sitting in the same room at the same time of day and am wearing the same face makeup. Overall, the roughness diminished a little and my complexion is generally more youthful-looking and glowy. Of course, food, sleep and a number of different things can effect this, but I know I ate and slept like crap before and after both photos so I will be stocking up on this stuff.
Check out my video on my winter skin care routine for more of my favorite products. They’ll be good to your face all year long.
Last week we went to Palm Springs for few days. We stayed in a Kid and Coe house that we totally fell in love with. We are dreaming about buying a place in Palm Springs now for the kids to play at all the time. It turns out I have a lot more in common with the owner than our shared love of pink rugs and beautiful lamps; her name is also Bethann! Weird, right? Seriously, look at her place and tell me you aren’t drooling. The house is #decorgoals
We also went to Arizona to spend some time with friends and family. We experienced a killer egg drop at Open Arms Church in Scottsdale. Watch the video — it was the coolest Easter egg hunt I’ve ever seen. It was a little difficult coming back to LA after getting to hang out with so many of our old friends in AZ. I wish they would all move here! 🙂 It is nice to be back in 70 degree weather though.
What are you all doing for Easter? I hope it’s a great one! xx
As I write this, Gunnar is chowing down on chow mein and sautéed vegetables using a fork like a little man. Harlowe ate the same thing last night and is getting pretty good at mastering chopsticks. I’m not trying to brag about how good they eat. They eat processed foods, sugary foods, even… gluten. Gasp! I just can’t believe how far both of them have come from the days where the only thing on the menu was milk. It seems like that was yesterday.
They’re getting so independent it kills me. This EZPZ mat has been a huge help for me in that it helps make me more creative about what I put in front of Gunnar. I originally bought it so that he’d have a plate that he couldn’t throw on the ground, but I found that a.) if there is a will there is a way and b.) I get obsessed with offering him 1-2 new flavors with each meal. To my surprise, he loves grilled broccoli. My experience with Harlowe has taught me that he probably tries/likes everything because he’s not mature enough to have an opinion yet, but let’s hope this appreciation for greens sticks. 🙂
I just discovered Baby Cubby which is where I scored the EZPZ mat and his Rags to Raches romper (these rompers always sell out on the Rags site before I grab the ones I want). I really like Baby Cubby because they are there not just to sell “stuff” but to be a resource for us throughout this journey of raising tiny little people.
Speaking of resources, I am going to make a video on a few of the meals that I prepare at home. The kids and I eat the same things for almost every meal and I have gotten a few questions lately about what I eat. I am really excited to share some of my quick and healthy, picky-eater-approved recipes with you and if you have any favorites you want to share with me please do!
I hope you have a wonderful weekend!
Rags to Raches romper and EZPZ mat c/o Baby Cubby P.S. on these rompers, I’d size up two sizes. The site says size up one size for a baggy look, but they run small IMO. Gunnar is a big 18-month-old (100th percentile for height and weight) but he wearing a size 3/4T in Rags rompers.
Happy Spring! Ive really been enjoying the extra daylight we get with Spring and am taking full advantage by implementing family walks. Our neighborhood is a lovely place for a stroll, but we always want to check out something new so we went over to the Venice Canals yesterday since Gunnar had never seen them and it had been over a year since Harlowe has been! I can’t believe it’s been that long since we’ve taken these. Our family has increased by 25% since then and I think Harlowe’s height has too.
They loved running up and down the water on the long, un-crowded sidewalks. Finally, no people to dodge! The houses are so charming along the canals, I don’t think I could ever get sick of it. Kaare and I decided that we will move there when we win the lottery. 😉
Harlowe and Gunnar’s cute shirts are from Tenth and Pine. I’ve really made an effort to get them both more gender neutral clothes so that Gunnar has the chance to wear Harlowe’s when he’s big enough. Also, I just like the look of neutral and minimalist kid’s clothes. They stock a lot of the brands I love like Kid + Kind and now they have their own line which is what the kids are wearing here. I just love this super-soft ‘hug life’ tee for Gunnar because he gives the best hugs ever! I hope he never stops wanting to hug mama. Harlowe’s ‘I love you more’ tee comes in adult sizes too which is pretty much my dream come true because I love matching her while she will let me.
I came across this mermaid tail last year while we were in Maui. Like most things Harlowe wears, it didn’t come in my size so I bought it for her. It’s still really for me, if we’re being honest. She likes to wear it in the bathtub and she splashes around like Ariel singing, “ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, aaaaah.’
^my sensitive skinned babe
Both the kids love bath time, but they don’t have an appreciation for any other type of grooming. To Harlowe, doing your hair should always be optional and if it were, she’d always opt out. I don’t blame her… I myself am an avid collector of dry shampoo. I think kids should be kids so on the weekends, we don’t spend more than 5 seconds on hair, but on school days that mane has to be high and tight to help prevent the spread of little, blood sucking bugs. In the interest of time, we do a simple pony tail most days (with a bow when she’s feeling fancy) and I love using SoCozy products to prep and prime each time we primp. The Hush collection which includes Hush Sensitive Serum, Hush Sensitive Foam, Hush Sensitive 2in1, and Hush Sensitive Detangler is our current go-to so we can use the same products on both Harlowe and Gunnar who has sensitive skin. Their styling foam smells so good that even I use it when I wear my hair au natural (vs straightening the crap out of it). The foam helps combat my frizz and keeps Harlowe’s baby hair flyaways at bay all day.
Since I mentioned preventing lice earlier, my other trick is using this spray all over the head. I spray it on each day after we do hair and we haven’t had an episode since we started using that a year ago. Really spray the back of the head by the neck and behind the ears. That’s where they like to hang out the most. All of their products can be purchased at Target if you’re interested and I’ve linked them below too!
Thank you for reading and have a great day! Thank you to BrandBacker and my friends at SoCozy for sponsoring this post. All opinions are my own.
Happy International Women’s Day! With everything that is going on politically lately, I am moved by all of the positive messages sent by and for women across the globe today. I was listening to the radio this morning on my way home from dropping of Gunnar and one of the hosts was talking about how women should get more pay, not just equal because people should be paid based on performance and he (yes, he!) believes that in most cases, women out-perform their male counterparts. For the first time in months, I found myself saying, I’m with him.
Here’s 5 things to get down on in honor of International Women’s Day:
These inspiring acts going on around the world today almost brought tears to my eyes. Putin’s statement may shock you.
This will remind you that we have a long way to go.
If you need an excuse to shop, this retailer is donating 20% of all sales today to the National Women’s Law Center. I’ve got my eye on anything opal.
Wear RED in solidarity. Or, if you’re like me and all of you personal possessions are boxed up in a garage, wear commanding boots and a soft, feminine sweater with red underwear. Why red? I asked too. Here’s an explanation from @WomensMarch “Today, as we wear red, the color of revolutionary love and sacrifice, we hope that our commitment to each other is reinforced.”
Make your voice heard. Maybe you don’t call in ‘sick’; there is work to be done after all. Think of what you can personally do to ensure we’re closing the gender gap on pay (or whatever else you want to take a stand for!) Here’s a few ideas:
Ask your manager if you’re still on track for that promo and start talking about your expected salary.
Negotiate for a larger bonus or merit increase now.
Donate some gently used clothes to a women’s shelter nearby. Office attire would be particularly helpful in this case.
Whatever you are doing (or not doing) to observe International Women’s day, I hope you’re moved and inspired. Let me know what you’re up to in the comments! Outfit details below if you’re interested.
Thank you Banana Republic for sponsoring this post! All opinions are my own.